There is the urgency in me that I have to spent more in Him. Just as I thought that I am living in His way but realizing that it is till in my way. Until I realized that then again, I am still in bondage of my sin.
I was praying this morning asking God why I am still in bondage of my old sin.With all the lessons learned from the past and lessons learned from devotions still I am in bondage. Full of frustrations, I resort again to His Word and there I opened up Isaiah 55: 6 - 7:
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“Seek the Lord while he may be found;
call upon him while he is near;
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let the wicked forsake his way,
and the unrighteous man his thoughts;
let him return to the Lord, that he may have compassion on him,
and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon."
What struck me most is the phrase " while he is near". Why? Are you leaving me, Lord? Is it because I am not fully obeying You, You will then leave me?
And as I ponder on, I came to realize that my sin is distancing me from Him. It slowly engulfing in my inner being that it gradually making me distant from the Lord. In my thoughts, I know He is just near but in totality He is nowhere to be found. I was just being confident that whatever I do, He is just near me....beside me. Little did I know, that He is already far behind me as I am trekking on a different direction - not His direction, realizing that He never really left me.
But because of His abundant grace,love and compassion, He enlightened me by tapping me on my shoulder, saying:
"Hey, you are going in to the wrong direction."
It further confirmed with this verse, Ezekiel 33: 10 - 11:
“And you, son of man, say to the house of Israel, Thus have you said: ‘Surely our transgressions and our sins are upon us, and we rot away because of them. How then can we live?’ 11 Say to them, As I live, declares the Lord God, I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked, but that the wicked turn from his way and live; turn back, turn back from your evil ways, for why will you die, O house of Israel?
Prayer:
O, God, You are to be glorified and honored always.
How great is Your love!
How abundant is Your grace!
Woe to me for being so selfish that I forgot all about You.
I forgot that all is about You, not about me, myself and I.
Lord, please be with me as I walk on the journey in this world.
Where deception and lies are rampant.
Whichever I turn, there is so much lies.
Send your angels and guide me from any form of distractions.
Thank you, Lord for Your abundant grace and loving compassion.
In Jesus' name, I pray....Amen